Crazed Flake

Today, I am getting the edgy feeling. I almost turned off on my way to work to go somewhere...anywhere. Just go and disappear. I have posted about this before, but it felt like my sanity depended on my going elsewhere. Not sure why and really this is the first time it has happened when I was so close to home.

Sometimes, I wish I knew who that person was. it is me, but not me. I wonder what it would be like to actually sit down with them over coffee and talk about what they want and why it affects me so. It is like some part of me whispers to me to just forget who I am and ditch everything. End up being the "I wonder what happened to" guy. It is so strange to me, but yet the feeling is nice. I want to keep it around because it causes me to move. To change. To energize. Actually consider the possibilities, instead of living the grind.

Its not that I think the disappeared-life will be better than the one I have. Far from it. My life is good. Maybe its just trying to drop all the inescapable responsibilities that come along with life. I stood last night staring at the yard that will need another season of tending, car repairs, house repairs, new planting beds and so on. Welcome to suburbia.

K

PS - Then again, maybe I just need a real vacation.